Monthly Archives: July 2012
I’ve made it- through two whole days in Kenya, however I feel like weeks have passed by already! I had imagined the first couple weeks in Kenya would just feel like a visit because I’ve come for short trips every year. However, today it really started to become a reality that this wasn’t just my home in my heart, but it was now physically my home.
It was a full day of unpacking and furnishing the apartment- and will still will have more work to come tomorrow. I am staying in a two bedroom apartment that use to be James and Vangie’s (Directors of Good News) home for the past 5 years. I’ve stayed here every time I came to Kenya, so I’m very familiar with the home and the area. Fred has been staying at the apartment for the last 6 weeks and will move back in after we are married, he’s rooming with a friend nearby for now. As comfortable as I was with our apartment, I also was aware of some not so strong areas of the apartment. Low water, one toilet didn’t work and the water heater was broken. I was fully prepared to move into the apartment and worry about fixing these things in the future. Little did I know, Fred was working hard to make our home ready and perfect. I was so surprised all of these things were taken care of- great props to Fred :).
When I’m blind, You shine Your light on me
Cause I’ll never get by living on my own ability
How amazing to find that you want me
So I’ll stand on Your truth, and I’ll fight with Your strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me.
I’ve arrived in London, half way home!
It’s very hard to believe that the last days are here. It’s extremely difficult to try to explain how I feel as these days are approaching. Every time someone asks me, I have a different answer because my emotions are ever-changing. Ultimately, I’m overwhelmed 100% of the time. I’m not overwhelmed with anxiety, nerves or fear, but I’m overwhelmed with gratefulness.
The past months have been a beautiful preparation for what is to come. I have so many people and things to be thankful for. God has surrounded me with a remarkable community that has again and again encouraged and supported me this entire way. It’s hard to feel a need anymore, because God has taken care off all of our needs as we take this step. He had carried us through this entire process, it hasn’t always been easy to trust Him, but he has again and again proven Himself to be always faithful.
I’ve always been aware of God’s plan in our lives, but I’ve never felt this guided before, this cared for and protected. I was sharing with someone the difficulties of leaving my family, friends and community, which has continued to be a daily emotional roller coaster. I said to them as difficult as it is to leave my family, it is more difficult for me to live outside the will of God. It reminds me of a quote I read a few years ago…
I’d rather die in the will of God than to live outside of it. — Dr. Jack Hyles.
I’m excited to continue on this journey…it won’t always be an easy one, some days I know I will cry, fight, scream and want out, but ultimately I know I am where God has called me and there is no greater feeling than that.
Thank you for helping lead me to this new journey…your friendship, love and support has been a complete blessing. I feel so overwhelmed with joy and thanksgiving that God has put pillars of strength all around me to keep me strong. I’m excited to see what God will do through all of us in the days to come, as we partner together to bring the fullness of Christ to the ends of the Earth.